How do I resolve the issue of negative energies affecting my mind?
What affects my mind, also affects my body. What affects my mind and body, affects my life. What affects my life, affects those who are around me, close to me. What affects the ones around me, would affect the ones around them. This would keep precipitating till it meets an equal and opposite positive force. I must thus find a way to protect my mind from this effect, for that would then take care of this cycle of cause and effect.
For this, I must ask myself some hard questions, for the quest to answers begins with the questions, and their answers are genesis of wisdom.
Where should I start? What affects my mind? Is it my self perceived identity, which I cling on to so aggressively, and protect and nourish with my full force? Or is it my own image I see everyday of myself, feel it, live it and hold on to it?
What is my identity? Do I identify myself as the relations I have with persons around me? Son, father, brother, husband, lover, neighbour, friend..? Or my identity is my religion, nationality, caste, colour..? Or is it my profession, education, wealth, intellect, wisdom...? Or a combination of all? Which of them is more important to me? Which of them I try to protect and nourish? To what extent am I ready to go to preserve my identity? To what extent it affects my mind? To what extent am I true to these identities, true to my nature or my capacities? Am I trying too hard to preserve these identities, so hard that it keeps my mind in a perpetual state of unrest? Does this state of unrest lead to frustrations and emotions? Do these frustrations and emotions lead me to using my precious time and energies to find ways to resolve it? Does this cycle of vicious circle continue to generate negative energies? Is it necessary to have so many identities, or any identity at all? Can I have freedom from these identities? Can I train my mind to be free of these identityies? Can this freedom help me rid my mind of negative energies?
What about my image? what is my image? is this image an illusion or true? What do I see when I look in the mirror, or close my eyes? Do I perceive an image of myself based on the identity I chase, or the things I seek? Does my image reflect of my past, or how I want it to be in future? Is my image my own, or is it influenced by others? Do I look for validations from others for the image I have created for myself? Do I need my son to tell me how good a father I am, or look for my brother, wife, friends, neighbour, colleague.. for validations? What are my reactions to their appreciative or critical validations? How do I react to comments from my lover as being terrible in love and a mistake, or my colleagues that I am the best boss? Do I crave for validations for my beauty, or an act, or my achievements..? Do I feel happy and ecstatic when appreciated, or angry, sad, pained when criticized? Which of my images get a boost, and which ones get shattered? Do I get annoyed and frustrated to see my images being shattered, and use my full force to protect it, get it validated? Does this force generate negative energies? Can I train myself not to react to any kind of comments, appreciative or critical? Can I train my mind to remain calm? Can I train my mind to not to create any particular image of myself? Can I be imageless and illusionless? Can this non-reactive calmness in an imageless environment help me rid my mind of negative energies?
Do I have answers to these questions? I will and must, but how? I know one thing for sure, that the answers lie within the questions. It is a beginning.
